I lie in my bed killing whatever little time left of my college days. Not just college days, the final days where I qualify as a child! No MS plans so… this is it! I used to wonder what the big deal was and why people would get so sentimental! Why they would spend night after night consuming unsafe amounts of alcohol! Why they would speak to their friends for hours together talking about things they had never discussed before! Why they would get choked up at farewells! The answer is quite simple. And I finally understand what its like. The time has passed. And this chapter of our lives draws to a melancholy conclusion. Our first few months at college were spent fantasizing about being the senior most students. Who knew when the time came, we would fantasize about our first few months. Now that the time has come, I cant help but feel nostalgic. Looking in every direction, all I see is memories. Some photographed for us to reminisce. Though there’s nothing like reliving them. As this time slips through my fingers, I cant help but feel incomplete. Leaving this place would mean leaving behind a part of my life. The part that taught me how to grow up. The fact that I, not my parents, am solely responsible for my actions . The fact that getting upset and angry solves nothing. The fact that I am not cut out to be an engineer. The fact that college teaches you much more than just academics and is more than just a weight loss program. Looking back at the days I first came to college, I cant help but feel sorrowful. I have made many friends in this course of my life. Not one of them do I regret. And I treasure some of them way too much. Quite rightly so. For what we went through was too special to forget over the petty arguments we had. For the fun times we had indisputably surmount the few and forgettable sad times. With every sip of whiskey, I cant help but think it may be the last one with my friends. The company of whom I desire with every sip. Just hoping the good times would never end.
This place has given me a hard time, but letting go will be much harder.
nice man.