Let me begin on a sad note.. The Goa trip which had been planned, postponed and re-planned, now stands cancelled! The most unfortunate and unforeseeable circumstances brought the slow demise of our trip.. And i sit in my room writing a memoir of this trip that never was..
In the beginning, there was some confusion.. But only regarding our living arrangements and as to what we would do ! But some things are just jinxed from the start. This was one of them. The amount of thought and time we spent on planning this trip was immense. But it took just a few minutes for us to conclude when the trip wasn’t going to happen. The planning effectively had started from our last semester. Since my visit to Goa in summer. The beauty of the place was enthralling! Peaceful to describe it in a word.. And the sunsets were a world apart.. Now it seems like a distant dream.. Now, there’s nothing to look forward to.. Empty days await as we while away the remaining time of our college life beginning with this overrated overly-anticipated Valentines day. “Dry till Goa”… An unfulfilled resolution which will be soon broken by an outpour of booze! Something to look forward to…
It’s hard to say why it’s hard to show the disappointment.. No regrets nonetheless.. One resolution remains kept.. “Everyone or no one!” It was selfish to keep the plan on even after Skunky couldn’t come.. And it was double fold when Yassar couldn’t make it either! As I sat there and made excuses as to why we should go ahead with it! Serves us right… No regrets nonetheless.. No guilt anymore either! And my happiness is derived from that! In a way I’m glad! The apprehension of my parents was apparent too! And since that day I was in two minds.. I wouldn’t be surprised if I backed out the last second.. No guilt anymore as I walk to class this week.. Just clouded by boredom… Like the past month.. Like the past year.. Like the past 3 years!
I’ve watched all that I could and reached my limit.. I’ve done all that was possible.. Can you blame me for drinkin!? And the sad note lasted forever!
Drinkin down your sorrows is the worst and the most demeaning way to get get over them. Why not just come to bangalore and visit me for couple of days if your in that much need for change!
i thot u wer comin down for the next weekend man!!! Lookin forward to that!
oh and i assumed u wud be busy with v-day n stf! 